I realized it's been over a year since I lasted posted on this site, and wow! have our lives changed. I have lived through a six month teaching job in Davidson, a job change by Ben, a trip to B.C, and the biggest change of all, getting pregnant. Our little angel is now 1 month old, and I thought I would fill the world in with all I have learned and experienced.
On January 25, 2012 my role as mommy began.
For the first week, I had a few fairly sleepless nights, however, very quickly it became apparent just how blessed Ben and I were. Our little princess would sleep wonderfully at night (3.5-5 hours at a time) and was quite happy and content during the day. As a brand new mom I averaged about 6-8 hours a night!
As she grows, she continues to steal our hearts, as she discovers new things. Currently, she is on the floor, making the rattle on her hand shake, babbling to her self (a common occurance).
Over the past week, I have seen her discover how her hands can make the toys on her bouncy chair move, and heard her giggle at me and to herself. She even falls asleep by herself on the rare occasion.
Of course if it was not for my mom, I'm not sure I would still have my sanity. She has been a huge blessing in my life. coming over, when Ben and I were both too emotionally drained to think properly, as well, she just stops by to hold our little girl, when we need her to.
Benjamin has also been a huge help. I seriously have the most amazing husband ever. He is a loving father, who takes interest in his daughter. He also helps me and cares for me, when I'm getting to frustrated to think straight. I love how he is always willing to help out and will ask me what he can do to make my life easier, or he will just take our daughter when I need a break. He also gives me one night a week, so I can attend a bible class, without the interference of a baby.
I've also learned many new things about myself. The first being, that there is no way i can possibly plan my day out the night before. Those who know me, know that I need to be in control and have a plan, and this little bundle of joy has done her best to remove the control I previously had. You can never predict how her schedual will change and how that could possibly impact your day. For example, she seems to love getting up at 5am, when we have to be some where at 9 or 10. This may not seem like a problem but she also likes to go back to bed between 7:30 and 8..a minor problem when you need to be out the door, and thus are not allowed to go back to sleep with her.
I have learned that I need to be a much more patient person. Anyone with children will be able to attest to this fact. I never realized how little I had, until the day I gave birth to our daughter.
I have also learned that I have a slight anger problem in the middle of the night and the wee hours in the morning. As most young babies do, my daughter sometimes forgets that 3am or 5am are still sleep times, and enjoys being up, craddled in your arms..which means you dont sleep much. At first I found this to be very cute, as she would lie awake in the dark just staring in my direction....I would drift off and wake up about 20 minutes laters, and she still would just be staring...however the cuteness wore off rather quickly as she also insisted that you hold her a certain way, and rock while doing this, thus making sleep something that is hard to come by.
I have also discovered how fast and hard you fall in love with your child. As I watch my little one sleep, she hits a certain stage where she starts to smile and her eyes flutter open. she is still asleep but the look on her face is priceless. I love cuddling her and the way that she cuddles into my neck. Most of all, I love watching as she discovers new things, the toys on her bouncy chair, the fact that if she moves her arm, her rattle bracelett will move, and how her voice sounds when she talks or giggles.
When I first got pregnant, I was worried how this adjustment would be to motherhood and maternity leave. I thought I would go stir crazy, and want to be back at work. Now, I love every minute of it and anticipate what my daughter will do next, loving the fact that I get to be there; experiencing it with her.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
"and he went out, not knowing where he was going."
Christmas has once again come and gone. New Years is fast approaching and I have decided to take a few moments, to reflect upon the past year. It was busy one. Things just seemed to happen abruptly and continuously. No sooner had one thing finished that another thing was upon us. Amongst this craziness, a few events have had huge impacts on my life.
The first one being I graduated, or rather convocated as I like to refure to it. finally four years, thousands of dollars later and I can now proudly say, I hold a bachelor in Education. The second thing was the wedding. We pledged our lives together, for better of for worse in front of hundreds of people in Ben's hometown of Regina. Finally, the one that has made a lasting impression on not only us, both those around us. Our decision to move. It is this decision though that I find the need for serious reflection or at least poses the desire to discuss with you as it has definitely been an interesting journey.
We moved to Saskatoon, in hopes of pursing a job for me. I had been given the impression, that I had one all I had to do was confirm. Well a few days after all arrangement s had been made to move. I recieved a letter informing me that there was no position available. I figured this was only a minor setback. As all other plans were workign for the better. Our apartment went to friends who needed a home, I had a job lined up almost as soon as I arrieved home and thus, we continued with our plans, and moved here.
Truth be told, we've encountered many setbacks. Ben managed to get a job. Nothing permenant, nothing he really enjoys. Yes he does have a full time job and we thank God for that, and it has good pay, but its not what he feels called to do. As well, I have been unsuccessful at attain perment work. I sub irregularly, work 4 hours a week as a gym teacher at a private school, and waitress. Honestly this was not what I thought I was signing up for. I thought God had confirmed things. I figured that coming here, life would take off, that we would find our calling.
In Decemeber, I applied for a job, and was turned down. It hit me a little harder than i had planned. I had been so frustrated with God. that it was the final blow. I continually questioned God. What was he doing? where were we headed. Ben and I, look at Saskatoon and wonder what we are doing here. We have had the opportunity to reconnect with my family. Over the past four years, I admit to not being the best big sister, as a matter of fact, I have pretty much been out of the picture. Not only has living in another city, moved me away from them, but it gave me a life, one that really did not involve them. Moving back has allowed me to connect with them, to work on our relationships. My brother was allowed to stay with us, durinvg the first semester of school, and while we spent tons of time with Ben's family during our dating and engagement period, my family saw very little of him, or heard from him even less. Now, he is able to be apart of thier lives, to get involved with them and build relationships that had we not been here, would have been very difficult for him to do.
A few days ago, I was doing a devotional called My Utmost for his Highest the grad addition and the passage was from Hebrews 11:8, "and he went out, not knowing where he was going." It hit home with me. the book went on to talk about how we are called to follow God in faith, and at times we dont always know where that is leading us, or what the end result is. It talked about changing the questions from 'What are you doing God?' (as he never will tell you) but rather to, 'Who are you God?' and allowing God to reveal himself to you with each situation that you encounter. They are all apart of the grand plan that God has laid out for us. By asking who God is, it draws us closer to God's character and thus creates a trust and faith. The book talks about being willing to 'go out' for God and just follow with out knowing the where, just trusting in who God is, and what he can do. Learning to let go and let God.
I see now, that I may not know the reason that we are in Saskatoon, nor do i know that this is the final resting stop for my family. I feel like God put us here, to help develop the relationships that were lacking in the past, and to allow us to grow. I am learning about God's faithfulness and his ability to provide regardless of the circumstances. Ben and I are still learning the art of being a married couple, we know that God has something big planned, and that no matter where he takes us, whether its Austrailia, Malasia,Mexico, Carenport, Regina, or if we never leave Saskatoon, we must be willing to Go. We're working on it. I know that it wont be easy, as God loves to push people out of their comfort zone and it may require lots of work, but regardless of that, we know that where ever we are headed God will never leave us or forsake us, we just have to trust.
The first one being I graduated, or rather convocated as I like to refure to it. finally four years, thousands of dollars later and I can now proudly say, I hold a bachelor in Education. The second thing was the wedding. We pledged our lives together, for better of for worse in front of hundreds of people in Ben's hometown of Regina. Finally, the one that has made a lasting impression on not only us, both those around us. Our decision to move. It is this decision though that I find the need for serious reflection or at least poses the desire to discuss with you as it has definitely been an interesting journey.
We moved to Saskatoon, in hopes of pursing a job for me. I had been given the impression, that I had one all I had to do was confirm. Well a few days after all arrangement s had been made to move. I recieved a letter informing me that there was no position available. I figured this was only a minor setback. As all other plans were workign for the better. Our apartment went to friends who needed a home, I had a job lined up almost as soon as I arrieved home and thus, we continued with our plans, and moved here.
Truth be told, we've encountered many setbacks. Ben managed to get a job. Nothing permenant, nothing he really enjoys. Yes he does have a full time job and we thank God for that, and it has good pay, but its not what he feels called to do. As well, I have been unsuccessful at attain perment work. I sub irregularly, work 4 hours a week as a gym teacher at a private school, and waitress. Honestly this was not what I thought I was signing up for. I thought God had confirmed things. I figured that coming here, life would take off, that we would find our calling.
In Decemeber, I applied for a job, and was turned down. It hit me a little harder than i had planned. I had been so frustrated with God. that it was the final blow. I continually questioned God. What was he doing? where were we headed. Ben and I, look at Saskatoon and wonder what we are doing here. We have had the opportunity to reconnect with my family. Over the past four years, I admit to not being the best big sister, as a matter of fact, I have pretty much been out of the picture. Not only has living in another city, moved me away from them, but it gave me a life, one that really did not involve them. Moving back has allowed me to connect with them, to work on our relationships. My brother was allowed to stay with us, durinvg the first semester of school, and while we spent tons of time with Ben's family during our dating and engagement period, my family saw very little of him, or heard from him even less. Now, he is able to be apart of thier lives, to get involved with them and build relationships that had we not been here, would have been very difficult for him to do.
A few days ago, I was doing a devotional called My Utmost for his Highest the grad addition and the passage was from Hebrews 11:8, "and he went out, not knowing where he was going." It hit home with me. the book went on to talk about how we are called to follow God in faith, and at times we dont always know where that is leading us, or what the end result is. It talked about changing the questions from 'What are you doing God?' (as he never will tell you) but rather to, 'Who are you God?' and allowing God to reveal himself to you with each situation that you encounter. They are all apart of the grand plan that God has laid out for us. By asking who God is, it draws us closer to God's character and thus creates a trust and faith. The book talks about being willing to 'go out' for God and just follow with out knowing the where, just trusting in who God is, and what he can do. Learning to let go and let God.
I see now, that I may not know the reason that we are in Saskatoon, nor do i know that this is the final resting stop for my family. I feel like God put us here, to help develop the relationships that were lacking in the past, and to allow us to grow. I am learning about God's faithfulness and his ability to provide regardless of the circumstances. Ben and I are still learning the art of being a married couple, we know that God has something big planned, and that no matter where he takes us, whether its Austrailia, Malasia,Mexico, Carenport, Regina, or if we never leave Saskatoon, we must be willing to Go. We're working on it. I know that it wont be easy, as God loves to push people out of their comfort zone and it may require lots of work, but regardless of that, we know that where ever we are headed God will never leave us or forsake us, we just have to trust.
Friday, September 10, 2010
In lieu of volunteers...
Something that has become ever so prevalient in todays' churchs, or even in Society is the need for volunteers, to clean up the messes, teach Sunday School, run kick off Carnivals, greet people, etc. Somehow though there never seems to be enough people to go around. How is that? I mean with the amount of people in today's churches you would think that there would be ample people to help, and yet morning after morning, church after church, you hear the cry from the pulpit for volunteers, sometimes its just a call out to people who might have time to help, sometimes a creative sermon about how God calls us to be active in his church, and yet other times its a "lecture" about how badly the church needs volunteeres.
Ben and I have been seeing many calls for these volunteers as we've church shopped, and I'm sure they wont stop. It's been the topic of discussion around the coffee table or kitchen table as we talk with friends, and I know that those wont stop either.
As I was reading my bible the other night I came across a passage the seemed to sum up what people have been telling me, and one that I'm sure many of you are familiar with. Its Matthew 9:36-38. Jesus is walking and preaching and healing, and feels compassion for the people he is meeting because they are like lost sheep without a shepherd (it seems even they had issues having people volunteer with leading things back in the day) and Jesus makes an interesting yet very obvious observation, he says :the harvest is plenty, but the workers are few.
How many churches can relate? They start community outreaches, their kids, youth and other ministries sky rocket with people in attendance and yet, they have few volunteers to help out with planning and organizing and even executing these events. Sunday after Sunday, they call from the pulpit: WE NEED VOLUNTEERS TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN, and yet no one really seems moved to get up and help and its the same way the next sunday as well. Its interesting to see that we haven't changed a bit since Jesus' day. We're still too busy to help, in some ways maybe too caught up in ourselves to have a moment to spare . We're too afraid to commit in case something comes up, we place our children in every sport and activity imaginable to help them stay out of trouble, and thus we no time. Maybe we don't feel qualified, so we don't even give it a thought. We leave people sweating at the last moment, praying that enough people show up and help so that this event or activity can be done. Why? what if we were to commit to that one morning a week, to teach Sunday school, instead of sleeping in how would our life change?
Going back to that verse, its the last part that stands out to me. Jesus, continues after his observation by saying: "Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore to send out workers into his harvest field." this parts got me. what is Jesus saying? I mean he did not say "Preach it brother, and get more people helping." but he also didn't say" its ok, everything is going to be ok." He said Ask God for the workers." could Jesus be speaking to something that we are unaware of. Perhaps its the continuous call from the pulpit that have people immune to hearing the cry for volunteers. Now I know that many people already involved with ministry will say, we do pray, and I'm not denying that or even saying you don't. God always comes through when you do, I've seen it and I know you have, but I guess what I'm trying to get at is that maybe we need to take a step back and look at our lives, how can they be altered to fit in a moment of volunteering, committing one night a week to something that will benefit God's kingdom in oppose to our own lives. I've learned that while volunteering you are giving a part of yourself, its never a one way street and you almost always come out of it, with some sort of experience that changes your life.
Also, if anyone has thoughts on the verse 38, I would love to hear them.
Ben and I have been seeing many calls for these volunteers as we've church shopped, and I'm sure they wont stop. It's been the topic of discussion around the coffee table or kitchen table as we talk with friends, and I know that those wont stop either.
As I was reading my bible the other night I came across a passage the seemed to sum up what people have been telling me, and one that I'm sure many of you are familiar with. Its Matthew 9:36-38. Jesus is walking and preaching and healing, and feels compassion for the people he is meeting because they are like lost sheep without a shepherd (it seems even they had issues having people volunteer with leading things back in the day) and Jesus makes an interesting yet very obvious observation, he says :the harvest is plenty, but the workers are few.
How many churches can relate? They start community outreaches, their kids, youth and other ministries sky rocket with people in attendance and yet, they have few volunteers to help out with planning and organizing and even executing these events. Sunday after Sunday, they call from the pulpit: WE NEED VOLUNTEERS TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN, and yet no one really seems moved to get up and help and its the same way the next sunday as well. Its interesting to see that we haven't changed a bit since Jesus' day. We're still too busy to help, in some ways maybe too caught up in ourselves to have a moment to spare . We're too afraid to commit in case something comes up, we place our children in every sport and activity imaginable to help them stay out of trouble, and thus we no time. Maybe we don't feel qualified, so we don't even give it a thought. We leave people sweating at the last moment, praying that enough people show up and help so that this event or activity can be done. Why? what if we were to commit to that one morning a week, to teach Sunday school, instead of sleeping in how would our life change?
Going back to that verse, its the last part that stands out to me. Jesus, continues after his observation by saying: "Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore to send out workers into his harvest field." this parts got me. what is Jesus saying? I mean he did not say "Preach it brother, and get more people helping." but he also didn't say" its ok, everything is going to be ok." He said Ask God for the workers." could Jesus be speaking to something that we are unaware of. Perhaps its the continuous call from the pulpit that have people immune to hearing the cry for volunteers. Now I know that many people already involved with ministry will say, we do pray, and I'm not denying that or even saying you don't. God always comes through when you do, I've seen it and I know you have, but I guess what I'm trying to get at is that maybe we need to take a step back and look at our lives, how can they be altered to fit in a moment of volunteering, committing one night a week to something that will benefit God's kingdom in oppose to our own lives. I've learned that while volunteering you are giving a part of yourself, its never a one way street and you almost always come out of it, with some sort of experience that changes your life.
Also, if anyone has thoughts on the verse 38, I would love to hear them.
Monday, August 16, 2010
And thus life starts
These past few weeks have been crazy, after the wedding, we attended the Erickson family reunion, so our days were filled with fun and laughter. We then headed to Moose Jaw where we enjoyed a nice relaxing time just sitting in the spa and de-stressing after the crazy weeks leading up to the wedding. Aug 2, marked the start of our Honeymoon, which entailed a road trip ending in Calgary. It was such an awesome time. We enjoyed many sights I had not yet seen and really got to relax and get to know each other. Calgary brought on Ben's Uncle Kirks 40th Birthday and a trip to Swiss Chalet. We also checked out Callaway Park where I rode the rollercoaster and the log ride (a huge feat for me as I am afraid of those rides) Over all it was a wonderful experience. My husband has proven to be a real joy to travel with (perhaps I'm biased) and I look forward to all our other journeys :D
On Monday August 9th, we recieved the text that our new nephew Nehemiah Joseph was born and thus tuesday night we headed on another road trip this one talking us to Regina. Wednesday had us helping with VBS at Rosewood. What a day! We were definitely exhausted but not too exhausted. We met up with the family at Sarah and Daniels new place and enjoyed some wonderful times with our nephew.
Thursday had us back in Saskatoon due to work commitments ( I started my first day as a waitress). The whole weekend has been packed with work and to round things up Ben and I joined Ashly at the Ex for some demolition derby and just hanging out time.
Finally that bring us to today. I have a day off before a crazy week, and Ben started his first day with Lifetouch training to take photos for schools.
For those who include us in your prayers, please pray for guidance as we have some important decisions to work through over the next couple months as well as for Ben to find a permenint fulltime job (he is currently only employed up until November). Please pray that I can also find a position that allows me to make use of my education.
We are missing everyone in Regina lots right now and for everyone reading this, please feel free to stop buy if you are in the area.
Monday, July 12, 2010
to settle the score
Well..about 2 weeks ago we moved all my junk into our apartment, and I must say I am quite surprised as to how much space actually exists within those walls. Our apartment is a 2 bedroom with a spacious living room and storage place. Our kitchen is not. However somehow the bazillion boxes we put in there, did not even come close to taking up all the space, which in a sense is kind of nice.
Since the move the first weekend in July, I have been busy, or rather we have been busy. Ben had a job interview last week and we are still awaiting the news. This job would be rather nice as it would be permenent, full time and it would keep him close to home (he has a job with lifetouch photography, but its only until November, so we are looking for something more permanent.) I'm still on the prowl for the job i desire. I have yet to hear back about a subbing position, but I'm trying to keep an open mind and just trust that God knows what he's doing. In the mean time, I'm still working with the 2 children with autism, and am trying to secure another job to help pass the time (I work part-time hours) SO for those of you reading this, please pray that I am able to secure a job.
Moving on, these past eight months have flown by and as of today we have less than 2 weeks left before we get hitched..the scary part is we still have so much behind the scene details to complete. I'm so ready to get married already, and have Ben home with me in Saskatoon. Our honeymoon is still in the working though we do know we are roadtripping it among other things and will be ending up in Calgary on August 7th...
However I should move on. Today needs to be productive as I head back to Saskatoon for the last time before the wedding tomorrow, and have much to get done including shopping and such...I shall keep you all posted...Have a great day:D
Since the move the first weekend in July, I have been busy, or rather we have been busy. Ben had a job interview last week and we are still awaiting the news. This job would be rather nice as it would be permenent, full time and it would keep him close to home (he has a job with lifetouch photography, but its only until November, so we are looking for something more permanent.) I'm still on the prowl for the job i desire. I have yet to hear back about a subbing position, but I'm trying to keep an open mind and just trust that God knows what he's doing. In the mean time, I'm still working with the 2 children with autism, and am trying to secure another job to help pass the time (I work part-time hours) SO for those of you reading this, please pray that I am able to secure a job.
Moving on, these past eight months have flown by and as of today we have less than 2 weeks left before we get hitched..the scary part is we still have so much behind the scene details to complete. I'm so ready to get married already, and have Ben home with me in Saskatoon. Our honeymoon is still in the working though we do know we are roadtripping it among other things and will be ending up in Calgary on August 7th...
However I should move on. Today needs to be productive as I head back to Saskatoon for the last time before the wedding tomorrow, and have much to get done including shopping and such...I shall keep you all posted...Have a great day:D
Sunday, June 27, 2010
and the clock slowly ticks...
It's less then a month till the big day. I still have 2 and some pages worth of stuff todo, and at the moment I'm not really worried. Yesterday I found out my hair salon for the wedding is went out of business, and I managed to find a fill in, though I am still looking for a salon that has a different schedule.
I've had a pedicure...and am slowly beginning to realize why women pamper themselves...it's amazing.
I still have favours to put together, a card box to decorate and an apartment to move into.
I HAVE an amazing fiance who pushes me to be a better person and has been a continuous help with the wedding. I know that I can trust him and I admire how involved he gets. I am also very thankful, that he is a details person because without him...well...lets just say that there would be no decor. :D
I still need to by a bazillion things for drinks and what not..BUT we do have a honeymoon...that's good.
Regardless of what I have yet to accomplish I am learning to love the little things that come about each day. Conversations with children, or friends. Sunsets and thunderstorms. I know that right now, Saskatoon does not look too interesting, and I know that we still have a long way to go to create the network of friends we have here. But I am learning that maybe change can be a good thing and that God wants us to grow, and develope and if my life in Saskatoon were a replica of what I have here, then I never would grow. I would not learn to push myself, and to develop into the woman God wants me to be. He has blessed me with an amazing future husband and family friends that I know I can trust (regardless of how far away they maybe). He works on his time, NOT mine; which drives me crazy and yet provides a feeling of adventure.
So what ever the future holds i say: BRING IT ON...I'm kind, sorta ready ;)
I've had a pedicure...and am slowly beginning to realize why women pamper themselves...it's amazing.
I still have favours to put together, a card box to decorate and an apartment to move into.
I HAVE an amazing fiance who pushes me to be a better person and has been a continuous help with the wedding. I know that I can trust him and I admire how involved he gets. I am also very thankful, that he is a details person because without him...well...lets just say that there would be no decor. :D
I still need to by a bazillion things for drinks and what not..BUT we do have a honeymoon...that's good.
Regardless of what I have yet to accomplish I am learning to love the little things that come about each day. Conversations with children, or friends. Sunsets and thunderstorms. I know that right now, Saskatoon does not look too interesting, and I know that we still have a long way to go to create the network of friends we have here. But I am learning that maybe change can be a good thing and that God wants us to grow, and develope and if my life in Saskatoon were a replica of what I have here, then I never would grow. I would not learn to push myself, and to develop into the woman God wants me to be. He has blessed me with an amazing future husband and family friends that I know I can trust (regardless of how far away they maybe). He works on his time, NOT mine; which drives me crazy and yet provides a feeling of adventure.
So what ever the future holds i say: BRING IT ON...I'm kind, sorta ready ;)
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Faith Like Joshua...
I have been watching as the status' of my classmates start listing how they have jobs, and I can't help but wonder, what about me? For those who dont know, I was offered a job but declined as it was not in an ideal location, nor was it ideal for job getting for Ben. So I continued my search, after a series of events, I had thought I had landed a subbing job with Saskatoon, and thus turned down any other offers. Throughout that weekend, Ben and I came to realize that perhaps saskatoon was where God was sending us. We gave notice to our apartment (which then in turn gave Kim and Jeff a place to live) and after talking to my mother, I had a part time job working as a care giver to two children with autism. However, about a week or two after plans to move had been made, I recieved the letter stating that at this moment there was no available position for me to fill. I figured God had something up his sleave, or things would not have worked out the way they did. That was at the begining of April.
It is now the end of May and I currently hold no certainty of any position what so ever, and Ben, well neither does he (for saskatoon. He currently is working with the CTF in Regina.) I have begun to wonder if perhaps we were wrong and maybe we had misunderstood God's direction, and thus that brings us to this morning...
I was lying in my bed around 6:30 (This is what happens when a certain sisters alarm vibrates through the wall waking her older sister up from her restfull, peacefull slumber) thinking about the whole job situcation and Saskatoon. God and I were sort of talking (I was complaining, he was listening...) when the story of Joshua came to mind, along with Hebrews 11 (the faith chapter). Thus I began to contemplate, comparing Joshua to myself.
When one starts looking at the story of Joshua, we start the book off, with God telling Joshua to persevere and be couragous. God tells Joshua that he is going to be with him. He gives him encouragement, and tells him to just trust and have faith.
Now Joshua, is expected to do great things, cross the sea, knock down a wall, by simply walking around 7 times and then yelling, etc. and as I read through the first few chapters, I pictured Joshua having a conversation with God similar to this:
God: Joshua, you are going to knock the wall down surrounding Jehrico.
Joshua: oh yea? how?
God: by walking quietly around it once a day for seven days. On the seventh day, the priests will blow their horns and the people will yell, and the wall will come crashing down.
Joshua: Are you serious?
God: Yes.
J:Have you seen that thing? It's thick and large, what is walking going to do?
G: You have to trust me Joshua, I will deliver the people of Jehrico, as long as you follow my directions.
and then they contiune with the finer details.
In the end, Josh does these things, and they all come true just as God had planned, but when the isrialites start sinning, suddenly things stop. I believe at this point, Joshua starts to get discouraged because in chapter 8, God once again encourages Joshua, to trust and not to get discouraged everything will work out.
So how does this relate you wonder? I am sure we have all experienced times in our lives where things just seem to be going great, we are conquoring any hurdles that come our way, and then, suddenly something happens, and we become discouraged, unsure if what we are doing is really the right thing. To that, I believe, God is telling us to keep going, things are gonna work out. Just like he did to Joshua we have to trust that maybe the impossible really can happen and we can knock down the thick walls of troubles by simply trusting that God will deliver us, and that he knows what he's doing.
After all having faith (or believing in the impossible) is being sure of what we hope for and certain of that which we do not know. (hebrews 11:1)
Thus I know find myself anticipating what God has in store not only for me, but for Benjamin and well.
It is now the end of May and I currently hold no certainty of any position what so ever, and Ben, well neither does he (for saskatoon. He currently is working with the CTF in Regina.) I have begun to wonder if perhaps we were wrong and maybe we had misunderstood God's direction, and thus that brings us to this morning...
I was lying in my bed around 6:30 (This is what happens when a certain sisters alarm vibrates through the wall waking her older sister up from her restfull, peacefull slumber) thinking about the whole job situcation and Saskatoon. God and I were sort of talking (I was complaining, he was listening...) when the story of Joshua came to mind, along with Hebrews 11 (the faith chapter). Thus I began to contemplate, comparing Joshua to myself.
When one starts looking at the story of Joshua, we start the book off, with God telling Joshua to persevere and be couragous. God tells Joshua that he is going to be with him. He gives him encouragement, and tells him to just trust and have faith.
Now Joshua, is expected to do great things, cross the sea, knock down a wall, by simply walking around 7 times and then yelling, etc. and as I read through the first few chapters, I pictured Joshua having a conversation with God similar to this:
God: Joshua, you are going to knock the wall down surrounding Jehrico.
Joshua: oh yea? how?
God: by walking quietly around it once a day for seven days. On the seventh day, the priests will blow their horns and the people will yell, and the wall will come crashing down.
Joshua: Are you serious?
God: Yes.
J:Have you seen that thing? It's thick and large, what is walking going to do?
G: You have to trust me Joshua, I will deliver the people of Jehrico, as long as you follow my directions.
and then they contiune with the finer details.
In the end, Josh does these things, and they all come true just as God had planned, but when the isrialites start sinning, suddenly things stop. I believe at this point, Joshua starts to get discouraged because in chapter 8, God once again encourages Joshua, to trust and not to get discouraged everything will work out.
So how does this relate you wonder? I am sure we have all experienced times in our lives where things just seem to be going great, we are conquoring any hurdles that come our way, and then, suddenly something happens, and we become discouraged, unsure if what we are doing is really the right thing. To that, I believe, God is telling us to keep going, things are gonna work out. Just like he did to Joshua we have to trust that maybe the impossible really can happen and we can knock down the thick walls of troubles by simply trusting that God will deliver us, and that he knows what he's doing.
After all having faith (or believing in the impossible) is being sure of what we hope for and certain of that which we do not know. (hebrews 11:1)
Thus I know find myself anticipating what God has in store not only for me, but for Benjamin and well.
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